Bikini - Before I'm Gone -

Before the societal pressure to conform takes over, many feel a delight in their bodies, a "deep well" of power and raw emotion. Later in life, reclaiming the body—perhaps through swimming—can be a way of embracing that strength, of being a "tall girl in a small swimsuit".

In contemplating the "before I'm gone," the bikini becomes a marker of time—what we wore, how we were viewed, and the "disdain" or "tenderness" we felt when looking at our own reflection. It reminds us of a "precious body" that was often treated with cruelty, and the eventual, necessary reconciliation with oneself. Bikini - Before I'm gone

Best essays of 2017: The day I put my bikini away - Salon.com Before the societal pressure to conform takes over,

The bikini can also be seen through the lens of the Riot Grrrl movement, where it was not just a fashion statement but a way to "defy society's expectations" and embrace personal autonomy. It is about rejecting the "win-lose reality" and defining one's own identity on one's own terms. It reminds us of a "precious body" that